“Love bears all things, hopes all things, endures all things” Those are the words that stand out to me. I think that while Cameron and I have been apart, my eyes have been open to things that I probably wouldn’t have seen or understood before. I can now see and understand why so many marriages fall apart, especially military ones. Being apart is HARD. Of course everyone knows that it is not easy but I do not think that one can fully understand unless he or she has been through it personally. Nobody wants to experience the feelings that come along with being apart from someone that you love so much but it seems like some people seem to see ending the marriage as a means of stopping the pain. It won’t stop the pain though. Instead of temporarily enduring the pain so that you can be together again in the end, you are choosing to be apart forever so that you can “move on with your life”. It will only cause more pain by completely losing someone that you love.
Being apart is probably the hardest thing that I have encountered in life so far. I do not like it. I want to be reunited with my husband and I never want him to leave my sight again. But there IS an end (or rather a new beginning) in sight. We WILL be together again soon. It only seems like it will never get here but it will. Time cannot stand still and despite what people may say, marriages can withstand nearly anything. It just takes a lot of extra work. It is so worth it though. I have now been married for 1.25 years. While we have been apart for nearly half of that time, marriage has still been way better than I ever could have imagined it being. I have seriously never been happier than when I am with him.
As of right now, Cameron is in San Angelo, Texas completing his MOS training and then….WE WILL FINALLY BE TOGETHER AGAIN PERMANENTLY!!! I’m just waiting for the end of November to get here. Sometime within the next few weeks I will be allowed to go and visit Cameron in Texas for a weekend which I am sure will be wonderful and within the next month, we should finally find out where they are going to station us. I am so excited that I have already started house hunting even though I don’t know where we are going to be living yet! Hey, it helps pass the time in a positive way. I just have to look at a lot of different possibilities and at ALL of the MCAS bases. It will be nice to be able to limit my search to one base. J While I am waiting in the meantime, I am trying to stay as busy as possible. I am working at NCCC’s bookstore and taking classes online from Emporia State University. When I have spare time, I practice playing piano and make personalized t-shirts for myself and friends. I cannot wait to be with my husband again and I am so glad to finally be into the last phase of his training. We are well on our way to being together again!